I've made full-on lyric videos on some songs, which are higher quality and easier to follow along with:
- Autumn and alcohol
- Fault
- Walk
- Crystal Larvae
- Let It Go
- Over The Edge
Всё из-за тебя (All because of you)
On April 19, 2021, Gleb shared the backstory behind his song on his personal VKontakte page:All Because of You.
(Not some made-up sob story. Just explaining about the song.)Last March-April, I fell into a deep depression because of losing someone (no one died). I didn't have the strength to deal with it myself, I just laid there, smoked, laid there, drank, cried, and so on. When I realized things were only going to get worse, I decided to see a psychward.I talked to the psychiatrist for a long time. A bunch of diagnoses. The doc insisted on hospitalization, but I chickened out because I was afraid of losing my driver's license forever. He prescribed me some antidepressants and tranquilizers. I chickened out of taking the antidepressants too because of scary stories on the internet about how people supposedly go even crazier, commit suicide, etc.. So, I just started drinking more. After some time, I got invited to play mafia online, and gradually I started getting back to normal.Then Dan Kim called me (last year too) and said, what the hell are you doing in Sochi, come to Bryansk. So, I packed up everything I had, loaded up the car, and skedaddled.I lived, didn't mourn, and someone messaged me. I found out about the shit that was happening behind my back, about the person I mentioned earlier. I fell into SUCH A FUCKED UP STATE, I was going to delete everything, delete everything I wrote because of her, I burned the diary where I talked to her, I burned everything that reminded me of her. But the boys supported me, talked me out of it. In the end, together with Dan (Couldrain), I wrote the most personal song on my creative journey.Then I went on my first real bender. It lasted 21 days...It's been almost a year since I wrote this song. A lot has changed, and I thank God for all the trials he throws my way. I'm growing up, my music is growing up too.And thanks to you, too - after all, it's all because of you.These are the song lyrics which I've translated:
[Couplet 1]
I think, that you aren't right
Through the window a black bird keeps me up
It is all because of you (It is all because of you), it is all because of you
Because of you I won't feel myself alive
I'm on the outskirts of St. Petersburg, I'm again alone
It is all because of you, it is all because of you[Chorus]
And you just keep laughing straight into my eyes
And also wrap around the neck, like a snake
Baby, it is all because of you
It is all because of you, 'cause of you
And you just keep laughing straight into my eyes
And also wrap around the neck, like a snake
Baby, it is all because of you
It is all because of you, 'cause of you[Couplet 2]
And in this midnight, frail and feebly I'll step into the porch
Playing with death within my age is long not any moveton
You oh so know this
Across blue puddles which are shaking the reflections of apartments
I'm touching down and again drunk, on the frigid, dampened floor
It's all a downpour[Chorus]
And you just keep laughing straight into my eyes
And also wrap around the neck, like a noose
Baby, it is all because of you
It is all because of you, 'cause of you
And you just keep laughing straight into my eyes
And also wrap around the neck, like a noose
Baby, it is all because of you
It is all because of you, 'cause of you
Беги от меня (Run away from me)
[Chorus]
I'm loving and loathing music about you
It is pouring down my saddened eyes
I'm loving and loathing your roaring words
They are pouring through your oozing lips[Couplet 1]
Another night
Another reason for a bottle of wine
I read through, all that I wrote about you
As I drank another one to the end[Pre-chorus]
And how many more songs like these should I write down?
So that your eyes would close for me permanently
I'm picking the slow-trodding, slow-trodding path
The most thorny avenue
Music is calling me
I will be home all night[Chorus]
I'm loving and loathing music about you
It is pouring down my saddened eyes
I'm loving and loathing your roaring words
They are pouring through your oozing lips[Post-chorus]
Run away from me
Run away from me
Run away from me[Couplet 2]
I'll erase all your pics off of my telephone, m, m (Oo, oo)
I'll again get drunk alone at home, just like last time, I want and I can (I want and I can)
Telephone on silent
Your voice for me is misery
My heart is pierced through by your SMSs from morn
I dug for myself a big hole
And threw all my memory into it
In which there is no more room made for you[Pre-chorus]
And how many more songs like these should I write down?
So that your eyes would close for me permanently
I'm picking the slow-trodding, slow-trodding path
The most thorny avenue
Music is calling me
I will be home all night[Chorus]
I'm loving and loathing music about you
It is pouring down my saddened eyes
I'm loving and loathing your roaring words
They are pouring through your oozing lips[Outro]
Run away from me
Run away from me
Run away from me
Вина (Fault)
Sorry but I've nothing to add besides how this is a banger song.The line "That snake that strangles me, well, to hell with it" is a reference to his previous song 'It's all because of you', in which there's a line that goes: "And also wrap around the neck, like a snake".[Intro]
Just like the last time, I am falling to the floor
It seemed as if right now I am playing rock-n'-roll
And just like the last time, I am promising you my love
While within me are deafened my feelings of guilt[Chorus]
Just like the last time, I'm falling to the floor
It seemed as if right now I'm playing rock-n'-roll
And just like last time, I'm promising you my love
While within me are deafened my feelings of guilt
Just like the last time, I'm falling to the floor
It seemed as if right now I'm playing rock-n'-roll
And just like last time, I'm promising you my love
While within me are deafened my feelings of guilt[Couplet 1]
Angelic-Protectors are coming up upon my heels
I'm drunk again today, come take a closer look at me
Viewing blindly through the prism of my current friends
I'm taking all my phobias through the door
You this won't understand, it can't be taken from me
«He's two-faced and sordid» — whispered your own mother
You lead me by the hand towards my soaked bed
I love you immeasurably only when I am drunk[Chorus]
Just like the last time, I'm falling to the floor
It seemed as if right now I'm playing rock-n'-roll
And just like last time, I'm promising you my love
While within me are deafened my feelings of guilt
Just like the last time, I'm falling to the floor
It seemed as if right now I'm playing rock-n'-roll
And just like last time, I'm promising you my love
While within me are deafened my feelings of guilt[Couplet 2]
She hugs my neck up until the loss of my pulse (My pulse)
That snake that strangles me, well, to hell with it (With it)
Autumn drives all up through Moscow shrivelled dry leaves, and my musings
By morning I'm alone, where's my Aminazine?
Don't know how many summers, and don't know how many winters
I was burning to a crisp, she was pouring gasoline
Oh, who was asking you? Oh, just who asking you?[Chorus]
Just like the last time, I'm falling to the floor
It seemed as if right now I'm playing rock-n'-roll
And just like last time, I'm promising you my love
While within me are deafened my feelings of guilt
Just like the last time, I'm falling to the floor
It seemed as if right now I'm playing rock-n'-roll
And just like last time, I'm promising you my love
While within me are deafened my feelings of guilt
Кристаллические лярвы (Crystal Larvae)
The song delves into themes of addiction, self-destructive behavior, and the struggle to maintain control over one's life. The lyrics depict Gleb, who is caught in a cycle of substance abuse, unable to escape the grip of addiction. Despite Gleb's awareness of his destructive habits, he feels powerless to break free. The song captures the anguish and despair of grappling with addiction and the internal turmoil it creates.[Couplet 1]
My face takes a change, in the surrounding of friends
Display is dirtied, but not by fingers of hands
Inside me is such a prettiness, which you could not have dreamed of
I shall not be telling you what I took the day before — I forgot the substances' titles[Pre-chorus]
Without apology you look into my eyes
But I have nothing to answer you, nothing to say
For me an artifical conscience will be replacing you
In which I have drowned, never touching the end
But this can't go on...[Chorus]
Crystallized larvae pull me to heaven
No matter where I am (Do not interrupt)
Synthetical truth is pressing on my nerves
But this isn't the first time (And not the thousandth)[Couplet 2]
I'm rushing to you straight from the hotel, in an hour I'll be back in this game
But you didn't even want to be listening, why I'm feeling all so not by myself
I do not want to realize the pit that I bury myself in
While snowfall's above us, I continue to create in myself flaws that are everlasting
In order to justify (Myself)[Chorus]
Crystallized larvae pull me to heaven
No matter where I am (Do not interrupt)
Synthetical truth is pressing on my nerves
But this isn't the first time (And not the thousandth)[Post-chorus]
And not the thousandth
And not the thousandth[Bridge]
And when there's a little left to go now, on this slowly-moving path
I'll do everything that's possible, so that the body's never found
When you'll be back here once again, mixing up the locomotives
You will get that all of this was just for you[Chorus]
Crystallized larvae pull me to heaven
No matter where I am (Do not interrupt)
Synthetical truth is pressing on my nerves
But this isn't the first time (And not the thousandth)[Post-chorus]
And not the thousa-a-andth
And not the thousandth[Outro]
That's all...“Display is dirtied, but not by fingers of hands
...
I shall not be telling you what I took the day before — I forgot the substances' titles”The passage refers to the use of cocaine or any similar substance, one way of consuming which involves arranging it into lines using a credit card, a razor blade, etc. A solid surface is required for this method, which in this line is represented by the phone onto which the white powder was poured. As a result, after the drug use, there were traces left on the gadget.“Crystallized larvae pull me to heaven”In this track, "larvae" refer to its lesser-known definition as "certain demonic entities that destroy people who cannot find the strength to control their harmful habits and sinful passions." This was explained by one of the producers of this song, Sergey Slam, in the Telegram channel of the IZBA label.When Gleb speaks about these "larvae," he means that he cannot control his bad habits and alcohol addiction, and for this, the "larvae" are pulling him to the sky. By the phrase "pull me to heaven," (which, in the original Russian lyrics, say "sky" and not "heaven" directly) he refers to the Christian term of a person entering heaven after death. In other words, Gleb, unable to control his addiction, is gradually "ascending to heaven," meaning he is slowly dying.“Synthetical truth is pressing on my nerves”"Synthetic truth" is a term from the philosophical lexicon, denoting judgments that are valid by virtue of the world's arrangement."Pressing on my nerves" means being irritated by the surrounding world.
Фелида (Felidae)
I listen to this song during episodes, as I find it calming. Repeating the chorus helps especially.[Couplet]
A discarded glance is smudged onto the floor
Your silhouette fades into the dark
Hundreds of verses to my baby about pain
Hundreds of verses, and they're all about you
If I were to encounter her again
In the darkness, grasp the pen-gun's handle
I'll leave the rifle for myself
Forgive me, darling, I'll be shooting
Words after words, falling on deaf ears
The time has come, open up—it is me
Your tender skin has grown paler
But your eyes still shimmer the same
You left only a bare shadow in the night
I enter, my hands are trembling
This is my self-imposed captivity
There's no escape from myself anymore
There's no escape from myself anymore
There's no escape from myself anymore
There's no escape from myself anymore[Chorus]
Exhale, a little emotion
Shuddered and recalled all the past
Stay with me for a bit longer
Black colored feral cat
Exhale, a little emotion
Shuddered and recalled all the past
Stay with me for a bit longer
Black colored feral cat
Exhale, a little emotion
Shuddered and recalled all the past
Stay with me for a bit longer
Black colored feral cat
Exhale, a little emotion
Shuddered and recalled all the past
Stay with me for a bit longer
Black colored feral cat
Exhale, a little emotion
Shuddered and recalled all the past
Stay with me for a bit longer
Black colored feral cat
Exhale, a little emotion
Shuddered and recalled all the past
Stay with me for a bit longer
Black colored feral cat (Felidae, Felidae)[Outro]
There's no escape from myself anymore
There's no escape from myself anymore
There's no escape from myself anymore
There's no escape from myself anymore
There's no escape from myself anymore...
Перезаряжай (Reload)
The main hit of the album “When You Open Your Eyes,” a lyrical and depressive composition about unhappy love.In the song, Gleb tells about shattered relationships and reflects on what led to this. Primarily, he blames himself—through the song's lyrics, it's evident that the protagonist possesses an unstable and destructive psyche, fickleness, and symptoms of bipolar disorder. Gleb himself mentioned the latter in a now-deleted post on the VK group.The song sounds like a cry of pain and despair—the lyrical hero begs his beloved to cause him suffering ("shoot me in the back," "burn me in an empty apartment"): perhaps he thinks it will be easier for him if he receives evil in return.[Couplet]
Reload your pistol[Chorus]
Reload your pistol, shoot me in the back
For me loving you only half-heartedly
Burn me up, while I'm asleep in my empty apartment
When there's fire in your eyes, you are simply so beautiful
Reload your pistol, shoot me in the back
For me loving you only half-heartedly
Burn me up, while I'm asleep in my empty apartment[Couplet 1]
You erase everything from my memory so easily and painlessly
And I with a stony grin, swallow all of this turmoil up
Be silent with me, forget what was before
I remembered you naked, but I don't recall you being happy[Pre-chorus]
No more feelings (No feelings) from sleep in one bed
I loved you on Thursday, but I'm seven Fridays on the week [1]
All the remnants of cigarettes between us are divided
Shatter all of the mirrors — for so have told me my demons [2][Chorus]
Reload your pistol, shoot me in the back
For me loving you only half-heartedly
Burn me up, while I'm asleep in my empty apartment
When there's fire in your eyes, you are simply so beautiful
Reload your pistol, shoot me in the back
For me loving you only half-heartedly
Burn me up, while I'm asleep in my empty apartment
When there's fire in your eyes, you are simply so beautiful[Couplet 2]
Your slaps are not enough for me, descend a meter down
All the wounds on your neck — a sketch-mark that's left by me
Among all the colors of the city, you chose the color black
You said I was the sun, but I am a decaying dawn[Pre-chorus]
No more feelings (No feelings) from sleep in one bed
I loved you on Thursday, but I'm seven Fridays on the week [1]
All the remnants of cigarettes between us are divided
Shatter all of the mirrors — for so have told me my demons [2][Chorus]
Reload your pistol, shoot me in the back
For me loving you only half-heartedly
Burn me up, while I'm asleep in my empty apartment
When there's fire in your eyes, you are simply so beautiful
Reload your pistol, shoot me in the back
For me loving you only half-heartedly
Burn me up, while I'm asleep in my empty apartment
When there's fire in your eyes, you are simply so beautiful[Outro]
Reload your magazine[1] Gleb often shares his feelings about alcohol addiction. “Seven Fridays in a week” for most people symbolize leisure, alcohol, and constant partying, which is why Gleb completely forgets about his love. He used to love on Thursdays, before, but not now, his week only consists of Fridays.[2] A reference to their own song “Demons” :
“I'll come back and look in the mirror at the threshold
So that the demons, demons, demons won't overpower me”In that song, as a Russian omen, the protagonist looked in the mirror before leaving the house, so that the path would be clear and without obstacles. From these lines, it seems that the demons did manage to overpower the hero, and now they are telling him to smash all the mirrors so he cannot rid himself of them.
Если я умру (If I were to die)
This is a more light-hearted and slightly comedic song, with very pop-like, jammy elements to the music.
[Couplet]
All is good, while I'm in a binge
And I am living with you, so long we haven't drunk up our reserves of wine
And I am being searched for - I've lost track of my phone
On someone's note we're spitting out of the window
February: it's wintry outside, and you do not give a shit
You don't care about anything, lost your family
We don't think about tomorrow, because we feel so great
Only today I love you only when I am drunk[Pre-chorus]
You are calling me the ambulance
I'm shaking and am feeling cold
You're so pretty when you're horrified
And then I shall tell you:[Chorus]If I were to die — I will leave this here with you
If you do not seem to love me - I'll set fire to your bed
I do not need flames, to be making it all hot
I do not need a pistol, to be shooting in your face
If I were to die — I will leave this here with you
If you do not seem to love me - I'll set fire to your bed
I do not need flames, to be making it all hot
I do not need a pistol, to be shooting in your face[Chorus]
And so it is endless: love and the ending
And so it is endless: love and the ending
And so it is endless: love and the ending
And so it is endless: love and the ending
And...(The song lyrics repeat aftwards.)
The reason I find the song comical is the line “I do not need a pistol, to be shooting in your face”, which is essentially saying he can "shoot" on her face with his semen, and so does not need a real gun to be shooting on her face. The preceding line “to be making it all hot“ thus probably also hints to arousal - as Russians are aware of the English usage of 'hot' to describe something sexy or arousing.Overall, the song is written from the perspective of a lyrical hero who is drunk out his wits, and sees the world as one big joke and comedy show despite the clearly bad situation that he is in.
На виду (In plain sight)
'In plain sight' is the song with the most interesting and ostensible lyrics; besides having my favorite instrumental, the lyrics themselves I find to be the best among all the songs from the album 'melancholia'. They are extremely direct and forward, and given the context of what the song is about, cause for a much deeper introspection for me.
“Morning of a nay new day, outside is already soon dawn
Tearing off my own skin, I am surely still seeking new ways
Everything else comes just next, I am never feeling at health
Do not speak, you I do not know, while I'm driven past gray-colored homes”The first line refers to how despite dawn approaching in the window, the day is still the same for the hero, as they have not slept all night; and so, the day is still the same for him, despite a new dawn approaching.'Everything else just comes next' describes the process of pushing away imminent issues that you have to deal with, and yet refuse to due to overexhaustion. This turns into a vicious cycle where you never feel at health due to pushing away your problems, which in turn only perpetuates those problems and diminishes your health further.The last line refers to how the lyrical hero is unable to contact the people around him, being in a borderline state between a trip and sobriety. He feels comfortable only under a dose of a substance that should soon be brought to him.“I will lead them to the door, broke my promises once more
Spewing blue flames from my mouth, I'll once more be in plain sight
Let this be the epilogue, broke my promises once more
On a canvas that's been marred, I will see what's beautiful”'Lead them to the door' is metaphorical and describes parting with friends who you don't wish to see anymore, or perhaps in this case it being the friends who do not wish to see the hero, for he broke his promises once more.'Spewing blue flames from my mouth' refers to consuming drugs - presumably meth - and thus being in 'plain sight' from what the drug would show you.The last line describes the body as a canvas damaged from consumption of drugs, and upon doing so the canvas will distort into a 'beauty' that would be shown to the hero.“This sky is shedding its clouds, down on my exhausted shoulders
I'll keep it for me on the occasion, when things won't get any better
But once more I see glares, that again want to fuck me over
And inside, anew barrenness, as if beauty took all of its leave”“It was here not long ago, the result: I'm so weak and I'm so low
That in the reflection of the glass I see all faces but my own
It all seems in vain, my fate - splatter the napkin in red
In these shards made up of glass, is a message sent from you”The first and second lines in the latter verse describes an exhaustion and burnout so indescribably deep, that the lyrical hero no longer sees themselves in the mirror.The hero describes his attempts of recovery in vain, remarking that his fate is to cover his napkin in his own blood; an allusion to his mortality and dying state.I put the translated song on Genius: https://genius.com/Genius-english-translations-three-days-of-rain-in-plain-sight-english-translation-lyrics
Тебя любить (To love you)
The lyrics of this song are extremely intriguing, as it starts off with an intro that I can relate to - essentially describing sporadic mood swings, where the hero can go from happiness and bliss to depression and suicidal ideations in under a minute. This is the intro verse translated:“I woke up today at six AM
Today no one came to wake me up
Watered the plants and went to feed my cat
No one will be standing in my way
Tomorrow I won't be available
Baby, don't even try to call my phone
You’re kissing my cyan-hued lips
A perfect day for me to kill myself”In itself, the song uses a play of words based on the fact how "to love you" (тебя любить) and "to kill myself" (себя убить) have the same phonetic structure and length, and can thus be easily replaced in the lyrics.Besides the intro, the rest of the song sings how the hero can no longer love their partner, describing how many tears they've shed into their pillow reminiscing of their happy past. The hero is described combining medicine and alcohol to create a 'death drink' for suicide.“Drink a pack of Atarax
And two packs of Phenibut
I'll pour it down with alcohol
And by morning I'll be gone
How much I've poured into my pillow
With the thoughts of a happy olden
That are unrestrained
And at times are slightly vulgar
This day, as if unintentionally
Tears the red thread up on your hand
This life has become impossible
To be loving you”
Слаб (Weak)
(Image is from the Album Teaser)
Not much to add besides how much I enjoy listening to the song. The lyrics are beautiful, and the song itself represents a peak of self-reflection, which fits the album that the song is from - 'melancholia'.
The description of wanting to stop running away from oneself, and yet being unable to find the means to do so, is something most people with mental illnesses relate to.[Couplet 1]
Reminiscing what was with me before meeting you
We're burning out, together with us is the night and the full moon
We forgot it all, it seems, once and for all
In this apartment goes a winter for two years now[Chorus]
Forgive me that I'm so weak
I do not know where to seek
That, which can bring to an end
The run away from myself
Forgive me that I'm so weak
I do not know where to seek
That, which can bring to an end
The run away from myself[Couplet 2]
I want to run away from these glares
Though it is impossible for me now
Silently gathering scraps of phrases
Which I scattered for the last time
I would have found tonnes of cordial motives
So that I'd stay by myself in this house
I wouldn't ever come here without memory
Not ever[Chorus]
Reminiscing what was with me before meeting you
We're burning out, together with us is the night and the full moon
Reminiscing what was with me before meeting you
We're burning out, together with us is the night and the full moon[Instrumental][Chorus]
Forgive me that I'm so weak
I do not know where to seek
That, which can bring to an end
The run away from myself
Аутоагрессия (Autoaggression)
Despite being the song that is most objectively relevant to me, it doesn't cause much to think about besides reminiscing of past events.
'Autoaggression' is the more professional, non-colloquial term for self-harm; the song describes the story of a girl who the artist met while in rehabilitation.
Describing what created the song, he wrote:
I approached the reference Katya.
“How did you get here? You are not an alcoholic, not a drug addict. How, and with what?” She’s 17 in the first place! And she’s in rehab for a year and a half already. In general, such a case is difficult... “How can you be here for a year and a half already?”“Well,” — she says, — and her whole body is covered in scars. And she told me about auto-aggression. And so the song “Autoaggression” was born. I showed her it also. And in some moments we even wrote together. It was very entourage, in a special way.The drop of the song has some poetic lines, which tie into the artist's belief into Christianity:
“To hide myself away forever
Angels will say: “Resilient”
In a sky of azure I'll fly away
In the reflections of the shards
Because this isn't violence
With the scars its prettier, I just so wantTo hide myself away forever
Angels will say: “Resilient”
In a sky of azure I'll fly away
In the reflections of the shards
Because this isn't violence
With the scars its prettier, I just so want”The most sympathetic part appears in the couplet after the first chorus:
“In my head again the notion rose
The idea that was hiding in me for so long
It's as if I'm doing something wrong
Again I'm biting my hands 'till they're sore“Tell me, that I am wrong, that it is all my fault
That I don't think of the future
And all my efforts are for naught, they're barely hanging on
And that my voice matters no more
(My voice again matters no more!)”
Не виноваты планеты (The planets are not to blame)
Besides the beautiful and poetic name, the song itself represents a form of adult sorrow that hints of a painful departing. Gleb mentioned in his Telegram channel that the song was written for his father and cousin in a voice message:“The song is about my father, and he always talked about how like, here, we don't see each other this and that, and so I came up with this song. What do you say?”
- First voice message“So like, he's interested in Astrology, and he just blames it on everything. He goes, 'oh the stars didn't rise properly' - the planets aren't to blame, that I am not with you, dad.”
- Second voice messageThe use of the word 'planets' is thus replacing the word 'stars' which is used in astrology, but the meaning remains the same.
“Set blame to just whoever
But I just know the truth that
The planets are not to blame
That I am not with you
Set blame to just whoever
Autumn will set its dot now
The planets are not to blame
That I am not with you”The line 'Autumn will set its dot now' is additionally an interesting sentence, as it holds two meanings:• Metaphorically, autumn is seen as a season of parting and goodbyes, where couples break up and relationships end. And so, 'Autumn setting its dot' means putting an end to these relationships.
• During this period, Gleb misused drugs - and so the line means the 'dot' is the dot or place that he would inject a needle into his veins at.There is another reference to the very first song made by Three Days' Rain:
“Between us are stars in myriads
I just want to tell it all
That upon time we were together
That which here is beautiful”The line 'That which here is beautiful' paraphrases the lyrics of Beauty:
“Boundless oceans, beautiful roses
Mountains and valleys, rivers and forests
If I was asked the beauty of the world
I would show them your eyes”Gleb also posted a Demo of the song and simply titled it 'Planets'; this version is is a lot more atmospheric and melancholic. Besides this, it holds a beautiful couplet which he later reused in a now-hit song of his next album, Parting:
“Wind smells of spring once more
You, as always, are cold
The sun departs in my wake
As such demanded the Moon“Wind smells of spring once more
You, as always, are cold
It's hard to stay with you for more
As such demanded the Moon”
Sever My Regrets
Faceless is one of the few English artists that I listen to, and doing so helps during my mental episodes. His voice can be both soothing and powerful, which fits well with the music he covers.Unlike Gleb's music I'm not as familiar with Faceless, and so most of these are just my own understandings of the song.“Sever my regrets
Telling my friends
That I don't give a fuck
Kinda hard to try when I'm lying in my blood
Every time it pours, shit, I don't look up
I can always tell with how I'm drowning in the mud”
Severing one's own regrets is straight-forward, but the next three lines hit very close to home. It's hard to stay calm and civil with your friends and reason about what's healthy and to be considering your future in the middle of an episode, when you're already lying in your blood that you can't get up from. This can be taken both literally as self-harm, and metaphorically as being mentally fucked.
The last two lines I interpret as the hero already being sucked into the depression, and so it becomes unnecessary to self-reflect due to your self-destructive ideations having already shown themselves and dragging you down. 'Every time it pours' I interpret as an episode.“Now my little baby said we're running outta breath”
I interpret this as his partner losing hope and vigor for their relationship, indicating the decay and slow end of their love.“Fuck inside of me
Fuck all the cunts who lie to me
Coming to get your arteries
Out of me don't you bleed on me
Cowardly, slit lobotomy
Slip the rope on and martyr me”This whole verse is direct yet strong - 'Slip the rope on and martyr me' I interpret as being betrayed and wrongly framed for actions one didn't commit; killing and martyring the lyrical hero for a 'good cause'.